Friday, August 13, 2010

Dazed and confused...

After the relief of completing harvest, I usually spend a couple of weeks in this state. The Big Push ends abruptly, but the adrenaline, and the sense of obligation to work constantly, seem to subside more slowly.

I'm never quite sure what to do with myself, and I wish that this state of confusion ended with me waking from my stupor on a beach somewhere (no, not somewhere -- in HAWAII!) a book in my lap, and seven days to go on my vacation...A sweet dream...

In reality, I am physically and mentally ready to do NOTHING, and lots of it, but Guilt, my oft-time friend, will not allow it...

There's plenty going on for The Farmer! Busyness continues for him as he un-does one field, and builds up another...

He and his helpers have accomplished much...while I wander around and pick the beans...

I have to say that after only 2 pickings, I am very tired of eating beans...very tired...This leads to pondering the beauty of the supermarket and its invention.

I weed my little garden beds, and cut some flowers...


I decide to get my toenails painted...which seems kinda silly now...Why did I want to bring attention to my toes???


I mow the lawn, then spend the next couple of recovery hours reading, with my eyes open most of the time...


I head outside again, and wonder why I thought it would be good to plant red & yellow calibrachoa in the same pot...why, why, why...It looks weird...


All this useless activity when I should be working on this:

Mom and Dad's 50th Anniversary Celebration...Sunday...two days from now...
I'm in charge of the food, which is why I hired a caterer, but there is the little matter of a family dinner after the party...I think I still need to get some things from the grocery store...Hmmm...
My sisters are involved, so everything will turn out, and my parents will feel loved...
But I still need to shake off the stupor and focus, Leslie, focus!!

4 comments:

Sole Obsession Footwear said...

I like your yellow and red flowers. They look beautiful. And I think you need to tell Mr. Guilt to get behind thee...you have some relaxing to do. Enjoy it! And if you're really stuck you can practice retail therapy next week at the new store. I'm looking forward to a visit soon! :)

Ridgely said...

Sooo enjoyed our "guilt free" lunch the other day! You are doing fine, give yourself a break! And read! :)

Anonymous said...

Stumbled upon your blog this evening and it bought a chuckle to this weary body!!! I can so relate...my mind is toast, my house is a mess-floors are clean but the corners-oh my goodness-- and only 3 paychecks to go-but one needs to be corrected and I forget how to do it--so I am just going into denial and heading to the FAIR tomorrow--
all day!!! The berry farmer wants to stay home and drive up and down the rows....ok with me!! Hope you had a wonderful day with your parents and family!!!! love & blessings to you! Berrymama

Tami said...

There is a Dutch word for your 'outta sorts' feelings. I have no idea how to spell it and there is no English word for it. It is banowght(sp.). In the meantime, the flowers are pretty, your pedicure is darling, the party will be great, and yes, you should go to Hawaii. It cures everything.

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Needing an outlet for various thoughts rattling in my head, I've created two blogs -- One about my real life (leslieisverbose.blogspot.com) and one where I can vent. (leslievents.blogspot.com)